Cat didn't know the girl who sat down across from her. Her face was familiar, of course; Saint Vincent's was a small school, and everybody knew everybody, within limits. One of the white girls, though not so pale as some, with nut-brown hair and eyes. Amy? Something like that. The girl had one hand on the table and was absently tapping out a nervous rhythm with her fingers.
"Stop that," Cat said reflexively, and the errant hand went still.
So did the other girl's face. "Sorry. Um. I don't mean to bother you, but..."
So don't, Cat thought, but she managed to keep the thought to herself. "I don't..." She wondered if she sounded as awkward as she felt. "I'm sorry, I don't remember your name."
"Abby," the girl supplied immediately. "And, um, there's no reason you should. I mean, I'm a Second Year, we don't have any classes together, and I wouldn't know your name either if you weren't..."
"On Team Kraken?" Cat supplied.
"Yeah. Sorry. I'm... I'm not sure how to ask this, but..."
Cat braced herself. Shit like this was why she hated talked to people. The girl would ask to join the team, or for Cat to put in a good word with Tempest, or maybe just if they could hang out or help her develop her powers. If she was lucky, she could refer the girl to Tempest or even to Ms. Salvatore. More likely, she'd have to figure out how to let her down gently, which was exactly the sort of delicate social interaction that she hated, mainly because it stressed her right the fuck out.
The girl glanced around to make sure that there was nobody near the table Cat had picked out on the back porch, then asked: "Did I see the new boy come out of your room the other morning?"
No, absolutely not, why would you even think that? Cat's brain was shaping the words, but her traitor mouth was already replying: "Yes, but if you tell anybody else I'll deny it."
"Um." The girl swallowed. "So are you two, like, together?" She flushed, then added hurriedly: "I'm not asking for gossip. I have a reason, really."
Do I really want to know? Cat wasn't at all sure that she did. "Okay," she said finally. "How is this any of your business?"
"I mean, it's not. It's just that... if I were to... proposition him -- hypothetically -- I'd want to make sure that I wasn't cutting in on somebody else's relationship."
Cat hesitated. "All right. If I had slept with him -- hypothetically -- I'd reassure you that it was just a temporary thing, and you wouldn't be cutting in."
The girl paused, and for a couple of heartbeats Cat thought the conversation was over. Then Abby asked, "Was it good? I don't want my first time to be a disaster."
"Yes," said Cat, "Yeah, it was good. But... look, you're a Second Year. You're young. I mean, I'm young too--" Oh, God, she was getting this all knotted up. "--but..." She stopped, shook her head, drew a breath, and then asked: "Why him? Why now? It's not a race, you know?"
Abby folded her hands together, then put them in her lap. She remained silent for the better part of a minute. Then she said, "Because I'd like to see what it's like while I'm still... me. And you know how it is -- a lot of people talk, but I never know if they're actually doing anything or if it's just talk. So when I saw him coming out of your room, well... I thought, Here's someone who's actually having sex, and it seemed like maybe this was my opportunity."
Cat absolutely did not know how it is. She avoided that kind of talk; she avoided a lot of different kinds of talk. She'd made her own private decisions, and it had never even occurred to her to consult anybody else about them. Still... "Okay, but... what do you mean, 'while I'm still me'?"
Abby looked at her for a moment, then unbuttoned the right sleeve of her uniform shirt and shoved it up past her elbow. She extended her arm, showing off the mass of pale, milky--
That wasn't scar tissue. That was armor. There were spikes, small but distinct, growing out of it. "What...?" Has Tempest seen this? Gods, she would love to examine this. The thought was out of place here, so she pushed it away.
"I'm changing," Abby told her. "That's where I fell off my bike and scraped my arm, so you can see it there. It healed different. But it isn't just when I'm injured. My whole body's doing this, just... more slowly. Probably since I was twelve or thirteen." She pushed her sleeve back down. "And even that isn't done," she continued. "Those little spikes? They weren't there a month ago. I noticed them when I tore the shit out of my pillow one night."
"Hostia puta." Cat swallowed, trying to imagine. "That... that must be terrifying."
Abby looked like she was about to burst into tears. "You... you really have no idea."
"No chingues." The situation had, it seemed, finally gotten so uncomfortable that Cat had relaxed into it. She stood up, came around the table, and squatted down beside Abby so she could put an arm across the younger girl's shoulders. "Do you have any idea where it's heading?"
Abby shook her head. "No. The doctors didn't know. The faculty don't know. I don' t know. I have monthly checkups with Ms. Campbell, but I can't really talk to her about what it's like."
"All right," she said. "Yeah. That's pretty fucked, but I can see where you're coming from on this. So... yeah, Lyceus and I were just a fling. You wouldn't be cutting in." She hesitated. "And if you need somebody to talk to, well... I'm kind of shit at that, actually. But... I can try."
"Oh my God, please?" said the younger girl, and Cat nodded.